I have come to realize that the hardest part of blog writing is opening yourself up to scrutiny while being honest with your feelings. I try so hard to be positive but lately it is just not working and feel like I am being sucked into a tunnel of evil depression. Rob trys to make suggestions about what I should do to try and feel a little better but I take them as a personal slight....why doesn't he understand that I want to feel better, I just can't. Every day I feel like I am losing everything that I have gained in the past year. I have no muscle tone left, I want to exercise but I just do not have the energy for it. Maybe it would have been better to have fallen apart earlier on in this journey. I remember a friend asking me when I was going to cry....well the day has come and it just won't stop.
Sorry to be on a downer but I have to be honest with myself and with you in order to find my way out.
Hope tomorrow is a better day
SHirley
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Shirley,
What can I say....you seen me through it. The tears have to fall, to let the healing begin.....release the bad, and don't feel guilty about it.....scream if you have to, get it out!!!!
I do realize that my surgery was totally different from your, but I was there.....just months ago,and you were there for me. Know that I am here, ALWAYS!
Day by Day, nothing more, nothing less. Bring on the Rain!!!
Love, always,
Shan
My dearest Shirley,
My God, you are normal afterall. I often thought why was I so sad because you were the one who made me stronger & I am to cheer you up, not the other way around. You have the right to get mad as hell & down at times, good to get it out & move forward.
Know I am only a call away but in my heart at all times. Lean on me.
I hope the sun shines & you will feel better soon.
Love you lots,
Carol
My dearest friend Shirley...(sorry, had to put those dots there, maybe it will make you smile). You are perfectly normal and I would think you weren't IF you didn't cry. You have gone through soooooo much and it does take its tole on a person. Its good to cry sometimes, it helps the soul to heal and makes it easier to move forward. Please know I am here, thinking of you and saying a prayer for you always.
((HUGS)) my friend.
Love always,
Paulette
Hey sis!! Know I am here for you too. Guess it's been said already but it's okay to cry...you are going through a terrible thing right now...we are ALL here for you and know we care!!
Love you
Melissa
we love you happy or sad. :) Crying helps you process and IS a positive thing, even when it doesn't feel like it.
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